some people are lucky enough to know what things can make them happy.
well, unluckily i am not one of them.
There are things that i thought would make me happy once i got them, but then when it handed to me (or well in this case it wasn't handed though, i strive to death for it)i just don't feel anything in particular. just a big relief. not that i am not grateful, it's just not what i thought it would be.

but well the good thing is, i fully aware now that i have to continue living and trying lots and lots and lots of different things, taking chances and risk, til i found out what is suit me well. what makes happy.