bye bye to do list

why is it so hard for me to do the to do list?
Gee!

A few months ago, in the early of this semester, I've promised to my self to work a little harder and give focus a little more on my study, and there were only 6 things to do on my to do list right back then.

1. attend the class, just like what i supposed to do. no skipping for silly and organizational reasons
2. take more and more notes during the class. no more day dreaming and silly drawing.
3. always, ALWAYS copied the hand out, right after the class is over. no more titip kiri titip kanan, or wait until h-1 uts day. and buy a map to put and organized them
4. buy all the books that are needed. AND READ THEM!
5. do all the assignments, espc. assignments that are involving some numbers and quantitative techniques BY MYSELF no more copy and paste. (remember practice makes perfect!)
6. hire a credible accounting tutor

and as the time goes by this is what happened so far:
1. skipping class, for a lot and lot silly and organizational reasons.
2. I take notes, lot of them, but only for several subjects and only if the tutor hand's writing is good, which most of them are not!
3. I bought new map, the best one, where you can separate every subjects' handouts. but the problem is, i don't copied the hand outs, yet right after class or before the uts day. so the map is still remains empty til now :(
4. I bought all the book and read them ONLY WHEN THE EXAM DAY IS COMING, but still it's a good sign hahha *sigh*
5. O do all the accounting and quantitative assignment by myself, until i realized that all my counting were wrong. Ahhh.. and so here we go again..the copy cat girl back in action. (ps: i never copy and paste essay assignments. I swear)
6. no tutor are hired.. i don't even searched for them (sorry mother)

plussss...
A zillion to do lists that is consist anything but my study. Like helping my friend with their campaign, do the organizational thingy because sadly they're in a huge debt right now, and any other things to do that somehow, as i rewind my mind, has nothing to do with me! ah shit.




oh please, dear God the almighty who own the universe, please makes my way easy