tick-tock-tick-tock
counting down the minute after minute after minute
and BOOM BOOM BOOM
burst out
like a cannon ball we all will explode
into small tiny pieces

and quesitioning our self why,
why go to the battle field
what's so good that makes our happiness worth leaving for

and wander and wander and wander over pile of gold we'll wonder

a sweet reward for curious me

เรา รัก ในหลวง
rao rák nai lŭang
we;us (to)love king

hell yes i finally found out the meaning of the sentence that is written in my bracelet. The bracelet it self is a souvenir from my friend who went to Bangkok last month, and I've been corious like hell with what the sentence say ever since, and tonight I finally solved the puzlle yihhhaaaa!!!

thanks to http://www.convthai.net/ and http://www.thai2english.com/online/

beleive me, it's not as easy as clicking your mouse on google..

L.O.V.E

making someone as your priority though you're just an option for them

useless

pointless

tiring

waste of time

profitless manifestation in life

distance

why do we keep getting further away?

questions of sincerity

yes yes yes
Yes I do expected something from you and the others, and I do treating others as I would like to be treated. Also i do sad and disappointed when you don't give me anything after all those things that i gave and did to you.

Is it wrong? or is it normal?
don't we people do such things?

And it is going to be much more wrong, i guess, if i deep in my heart, secretly, I scared to death that all those people whom always have me behind their back, won't stand for me or catch me when i fall someday.

Is it wrong? or is it normal?

is it just the idea of loosing that creep my mind out or am I really one selfish bitch that always take everything for granted?

I do ask a lot of questions don't I?

oh dear heart please work as sincere as you can do, since sincerity sure will takes away all those worries from our shoulders

toples permen racun

aku terkungkung di toples penuh bola-bola permen

yang memberikan kesenangan-kesenangan semu

gula gula manis palsu

warna warni pewarna racun pelangi

pembuat adiksi

girang-girang senang lalu sakit gigi

suara

Saat rasa kalut dan kelabu membelut kau selalu sembunyi. Berlari masuk ke ruang kedap suara berdinding kaca. Berteriak teriak frustasi. Menyumpah serapah. Mengutuk dan mengumpat.

Dari luar kami melihat. Menonton. Menyaksikan. Gerak bibir mu yang komat kamit sepeti membaca mantra. Megap-megap kelelahan, akibat berteriak-riak rkencang. Gerak tubuh mu bergeliyat liar, kesetanan. Tak terkendali.

Kau seperti memang sengaja minta ditonton. Sengaja ingin diterka, dan membuat kami bertanya-tanya "ada apa dengan dia?".

Kau menggantungkan dirimu pada telepati-telepati, kekuatan supranatural penembus ruang dan waktu pembaca pikiran, dan burung-burung yang membisikan kabar dari telinga ke telinga. Berharap kami mengerti sendiri, hanya dengan melihat, tanpa perlu mendengar.

Lalu apakah menjadi salah kami, jika pada akhirnya kau mati, membusuk sendiri di ruang kacamu?
Karena pikiran kami yang tidak dapat menembus kaca tebal yang mengelilingimu, sehingga telepati tak dapat terjadi. Karena Dewa tidak memberikan kami kekuatan supranatural yang luar biasa. Dan karena burung-burung pembawa kabar berita mu mati sebelum kabar sempat tersiar

menang jadi arang, kalah jadi abu

Aku bukanlah makhluk yang sangat cinta akan kompetisi
Dan bila kau tiba-tiba merasa kalah, menang, atau harus berlari lebih cepat
Sungguh aku akan merasa iba

Tidaklah pernah aku merasa kita berada di jalur ataupun mengejar garis akhir yang sama
Serta tidak pula-lah aku mau berebut trophy dengan lawan yang tak sebanding
Karna aku sportif bukan kompetitif

You and Me and TV

it is like
watching us
in a small square
that can provides
pictures and sounds
but
in a more fortunate form of physicall


is it us who being so melodramtic or what?

if we are so pleased and happy about pleasing each other, then why do we have to argue about it?

"It's for the good of you I sing sweet melody"

-Starsailor, Born Again-

thank you mario! but our princess is in another castle!

kalau saja
hidup ini
seperti video game
mario bros

pasti aku tidak akan segan
memasuki semua pipa
sampai akhirnya
aku temukan
pipa menuju hatimu

and i will not give up so easily, though it always end up like this in every level

akhirnya hari ini datang juga

daripada iri iri
meratapi kanan kiri
lebih baik punya sendiri
horree!!