Continuum

Some people are lucky enouh to found and managed to settle as loyal spouse to their so called soul - mate forever in their life.

I found myself lucky enough to get the chance to know you.

We might not share those romantic affections or ever waking up in the same bed (god, thats gotta be really awkward :| ) . We don't even found ourselves meet every day. You know, some people were just destined to have their
own seperate way, and we are one of them.

But you know there's gonna be this one day. When everything seems to be fine between us, and we finally meet again in a halfway. And when that time comes we gonna talk as if the sun knows no dawn. We gonna share all this movies and books and music we have read, watched, and listened to, all the sceneries we have seen in our journey and those dirty little secret we made along the way.  Our smiles is even wider than ear to ear, and our laughs, yes our laughs, their just gonna be so loud as its just unbearable to hold them.

And when that day come, though it's just a short one day, it's gonna feel like we have shared a lifetime together.

Just right before the sun sets and we drift apart again to continue our own life, with a half full jar of happiness that we will cherish until our next rendevouz.

comedians behind bars

and if all the bad things you've done
were just a jokes
just like what you said for a sorry
then wouldn't be the prison
be less scary
?

hallo kamu,

If we have a date then this year should be our i don't even counting down the years or so anniversary, but lets forget about it, we don't have it anyway, and we shall stop to longing for things that we don't have. Umm well, so we've or should i said I've (just in-case were happen not to be in the same page, and this whole time you is just something that my wild imaginary bring out to the world) been in this journey of the unfortunate events for years, and it's been fun. Why unfortunate? because misery is what bringing us together. I think that we're that kind of people that are probably cursed to have so much problems or dramas in our lives (though, this is just a justification for us being such a complainer :p) and lucky us that we've got each other back, sadly but true it feels like a curse and blessing at the same time to have you around. You give me so much butterflies in the stomach that it goes way too many and started to eat my heart alive. and it ain't good, no good at all. So please allow me to be a heart less complainer just as much as you are with your cold metal heart. And i wish us a whole more fun less complain more love year ahead and ahead and ahead and ahead. and i wished us could one day leave all this journey behind take a boat to a tropical deserted island to actually celebrate something together or with a more decent people than any one of us. :)

it's a wrap and so do us (hopefully)

kisses and hugs,

Dear, Sir

just for one moment could you please tell me one beautiful lie for a while
not like for forever
just tell me until all tits and tats done
i need something to calm me down
until all those craps are done
after that
you're free to tell all those bitter truths
and i won't mind
i'll embrace it with the biggest smile
but just for now
would you just please tell me those beautiful lies?

a clear black sky

i've wiped all the dark clouds away
a clear blue sky i've given you
now you asking me to catch all the rainbow too?
how clear do you wish the sky could be?
i could give you everything you ever wanted
bringing down the heaven if you may then i would
but do you realize, dont you?
a black empty sky will be the only thing left for you

i know it's the first or second since it already past 12 now of ramadhan. but that bitch. she's just creeping back into my thought. darn!

those stupid writings that i belief were meant for her.
you bitch! that was never your fault.

it is just i wished i have something or someone to be blamed to.

mohon maaf lahir dan batin

dear, ibu

i miss my dutch course. i miss it miss it miss it.
my current office is only 10 minutes busway ride from erasmus huis. So tell me mother why can't i continue my study? WHY?

hello hello meet me again

well it's been a while since my last post.
and hell yeah i miss this place
i feel like a polygamy who can't treat my wives fairly, well in this case my tumblr and blog account. SAD

well anyway,
HAPPY NEW YEAR
i am still thinking about what's the best resolution i should committed to. Since I've promise my self that my 2011 resolution should be something that is realistic and has a great chance to be achieved, unlike those other past years. Any idea anyone?

postcard malam

dan aku jadi bingung harus membantu siapa terlebih dahulu, diriku sendiri atau kamu?
bisakah kita bersama-sama bahu membahu saja?
yah semoga bisa.


well anyway. goodnight, sleep tight, don't let your mind eat you alive. :*

i am a girl
behind the steering wheel
on a dead machine

how i wished for you to help me turning the machine on

a finger will always leave its mark

Blaaaafff..
You touched the cake that I am about to eat, again!

Eerrr..
It is so disgusting for heaven sake, to have a mark of your dirty finger

in things that I am about to enjoy
Why can you just mind your own cake, since you have one for your own?

Ah well, one is never enough for you, no?

uh, don't you think this cupcake is so cute?

role play

ini gimana yah,
saya yang terlalu banyak bergerak apa mereka saja yang pantatnya berat?
saya yang kebanyakan haha-hihi apa mereka saja yang tidak tahu cara senang-senang?
saya yang tidak pernah tahu apa mereka yang memang tidak mau kasih tahu?

siapa jadi apa siapa tahu apa siapa dimana siapa harus melakukan apa siapa patut apa siapa dapat apa siapa jadi siapa

beritahu siapa saya dimata mereka biar saya tahu harus jadi siapa..

*entah kenapa sesaat hati saya terenyuh saat mem-posting tulisan ini :(

oh hey hello, you're breaking your promise (again)

you spitted out things
as always
million promises
to have everyone feel pleased

i am a joker, you better beware when i laugh

when i laugh, is when i serious the most!

book of spells

I am an open book of spells. Everyone can read me, only few can truly understands.

it's so sad for me for being cheerful all the time

really..
it's not like because she act more pitiful and melancholic
then she deserve a better place

why do you and your colony always put excuses for her?

you owe me an apology and a story

You're just never understand what I've in mind.

tell me, what is big problem in your point of you?

I've shared and told everything
I'm sorry if they're not big enough for you


you should be grateful to have a friend like me
that never asked too much attention

and if my problem doesn't fit to your requirements as a friend
I'm ready to leave if you want me too
but, well, it's gonna be your lost
cause, no one want to hear your story like I do

start think about things you really want not what they want you to have

why don't you just sit and stop?
asking tits and tats won't give you a way out
ask for help but don't let 'em decide

sometimes you're just way too busy with what others have in thought

and i am so glad that we never really decided where to stop

they say,
we are like a flowing river
no, we are so much worse
even a flowing river knows that someday it will meet the sea

they say,
we are like trapped in a huge labirin
no, even labirin has its' way out
well I am not sure if we have something to be solved

for me,
we are just a journey that is so close to nowhere..
but here's a secret I want to share
i kinda enjoyed this pointless journey actually..

oh I should stop, shouldn't i?