sing a song for me

do you feel like singing?
cause right now I feel like dancing
and I can't start without you

kontemplasi

menanam kebencian tidak pernahlah baik
apalagi memupuki dan menyiraminya
sampai ia tumbuh begitu subur
dihalaman hati mu yang gersang dan kelabu
maka marilah kita
menebangnya atau jika terlalu sayang
abaikan lah
sampai ia nanti layu dan mati sendiri
butuh waktu, memang
apalagi jika ia telah tumbuh begitu besar dihati mu
tapi apalah ruginya mengabaikan hal yang hanya dapat
membuat gersang dan kerontang halaman hati mu sayang?

while i sip my expensive coffee

I ask my self, what am I doing?

Act like a thief
crawl into my own house
In the middle of the night

Wake up noon
While nobody see

And I believe they who are not understand
Will judge me lazy

The sun, the beaches, and holidays
Were my best friends
Until I have to sweat and pledge on my knees
on public holidays

Oh well this isn't me
I am not taking order
Nor willingly pleasing strangers that being called as a king sincerely
Since I am the bossy kind

Oh well probably maybe
This is what I have to get through
Until I heard my true calling

And now here I am waiting
frowning and complaining
wandering what my life would be after i left this hell
Over a tumbler of the most expensive coffee and pastries
that I wish could make me feel any better and lucky

take a time out for yourself

Don't you think that sometimes we're too busy to think and mind everyone elses' problems than to think about what we really need for ourselves?

Oh hello people, for one sec. please do stop talking and taking care about someone else's life. When i said "talking and taking care about someone else's life" I don't refer it to all those bad habits such gossiping and being kepo. I mean it literally, you know taking care of someone's problems as if it's yours and the feeling to always being heroic and nice all the time. Believe me, at some points in your life you have to stop and taste a little sip of fun in life just for your own. Sure, taking care of people that we love, esp. they who loved you back is good. But really, how are we supposed to help others while we don't even care for ourselves?

So, please STOP for a moment, and ask yourself these questions:

"What do I really need?"

"Am I happy enough?"

"Is there something wrong with my life?"

"Do I have to fix it?"

Because you need just as much attention as the other needs you

I cannot let you go

Sondre Lerche, I Cannot Let You Go


With sleight of hand and force of will
Closets full of odd-sized shoes to fill
I better be a gifted kid
To undo some of the deeds you did

In 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8
You're gonna be alone, gonna be alone, it's gonna be late
Forgive you anything

I try to shake it but it just won't do
And it's all coming back to me now
So we'll pretend or make up something new
You can push me away but I cannot let you go (let you go)
I cannot let you go (let you go)
I cannot let you go

The rubber band is wearing thin
Bursting as reality kicks in
All hope should be at long last lost
But you'll defy all sense at any cost

In 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8
You're gonna be alone, gonna be alone, it's gona be late
Forgive you anything

I try to shake it but it just won't do
And it's all coming back to me now
So let's pretend or make up something new
But there's no getting back to the start
I try to shake it but it just won't do
You can push me away but I cannot let you go (let you go)
I cannot let you go (let you go)
I cannot let you go, I cannot let you go

In 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8
You're gonna be alone, gonna be alone, gonna be late
Forgive you anything

I try to shake it but it just won't do
And it's all coming back to me now
So let's pretend or make up something new
But there's no getting back to the start
I'll be a father, you can be a son
Till I can't even tell us apart
I tried to shake it but the deal is done
You can push me away but I cannot let you go (let you go)
I cannot let you go (let you go)
Try as I may I know I cannot let you go (let you go)
I cannot let you go (5x)

why should i hate you friend?

A few days ago or a week i must say, a friend told me to write down 10 things that I hate and might thought wrong about him. I honestly never have any thought like that about my friends. I mean like i never count my friends flaws, since a friend in my point of view, would never done such things. But after he popped out the idea, it really makes me think about what are things that I hate or I found wrong about him and some other friends. Well this is my answer for such weird demand

1. I hate their kindness that always put me on a worry that i would never be able to pay them back
2. I hate the way they make me feel being needed as if i am one heroic bitch
3. I hate the way they make me feel as if my life has no problem
4. I hate their luck.. yes I'm so jealous with their luck, with how they can have everything at the same time
5-10?

i dont know. i dont have a clue. Really, why should i hate my friends? I take them just the way they are.

wrong track

letter to a friend,

I wished for you to finally find a way back home..

because there's nothing in this world that's worthy enough for you to leave your family behind