a week in 2018

the first week of the year always be the best time to contemplate on what do you want to pursue for the next 365 as if you will really make an effort to persue it.

and so i’ve been rereading my post from excatly 1 year ago (because, yes i write the most during the first week of the year, and yes because i want to make myself beleive that having a resolution or whining over something from the year before is a good idea)

and apperantly exactly a year ago I’ve wrote that i wished i could get away from the city. And making new living. Somewhere , outthere , not here.

which i happened to forget along the way in 2017 ( because of course, what would i be, and how could i live if i am leaving the only job, where at least the people beleive that i am capable of doing all those shits?! I cant even get myself thinking that way) any ho, Tho i forget about the only resolution i made back then, i kinda do pretty good in makin that happened. I travelled a lot, way too much, i got broke, and starting 2018 with an empty piggy bank (HUFTE!). But well, guess it was a way to forget Jakarta, tho well here i am coming back (at least i tried, no?). Aanndd.. as much as i forget about the resolution i made, guess what, I am spending my last day of 2017 with the only reason who wanna make me  want to leave the city at the first place.  

But i guess i am at peace, with me and us and everything ever lingering. Not with the city tho’. The issues was always bigger than that. And yes, i still want to leave this city.

And thats it, i started of 2018 without any resolution in mind, but i guess now i have one. To at least try, leaving all the comfortness the city has to offer, and take a leap to the great unknown.

Hopefully, i am not gonna forget about it this time.