turn it off

if my love stories were a movie then it would be the kind with one romance illetrate lady and the always taking anything for granted man . who seems as if they were meant for each other.

where it would have all the audince cheering for them and feels like when it bound for them to be together, the universe has consipire to set them up .

but just before everything turns great

it would change its genre into some ironic absurd action movie, where the missile is set and there’s a bomb raining down from the sky. And all the dead were risen. And suddenly its a zombie acopolypse and you need to kill everyone to survive or to be killed , and found out that, that man who always taken you for gratend is saving another soul but you, and you found yourself cannot be anymore careless, cos hell yeah you’re already dead inside, cos you’ve been knowinga all along that he was a zombie from the very begining. A rotten, but you hide it so tidy from anyone but yourself cos you love the idea of having people cheering on something that was not even there. And it’s an acopolypse for god sake, so why would i even bother.

so yeah. my love stories. it was never bound to be a happy ending. the one i love was always either a zombie or loving my best friend or my enemies or a best fried who soon to be an enemy or some random women out there who also soon to be my enemy. So yes, my act of loving is always in pararel with hating, and i cannot be more disgust with myself than i am now. 

and yes, you can turn off the tv. Thank you