i always worried that 

i do not have enough cash

on my flamingo rectangle size wallet

and on my bank account

or even on the secret pouch i hid just in case

not that i

put price tag on everything what so ever

it is just

those bumpy little surprises 

life keep on giving us

like the sick of a parents

or cat

or someone’s birthday that you actually forget but you’ve got the invitation so bringin a present is a must

and those never ending wedding invitation

if there’s a time in life i would gladly skip

it would be that phase where all my friend is getting married and i need to spent all my money for a bridesmaid dresses i would never wore again and those pocket money withouth me really most of the time unable to feeling the happiness (i mean its someone else’s wedding, why would i get excited about it?)

i sometimes wishing me achieve something or doing what I actually really like that bringing me to an enlightenment and understanding of those basic pinterest saying that money can’t buy happiness honey

i just not there yet

but my happyness is yet to be