last weekend

i finally feel the liberation 

from things that keeps me

going back to the nothingness of the past

i started forgetting important dates that are no longer significant 

maybe it no longer worth celebrating 

maybe no one ever celebrated it anyway

not until everything old and grey

i’d keep my composure well and steady

on some random news 

like i don’t give any shit anymore

because maybe i am no longer care

who are those people lingering when i am not around

maybe i don’t want and need to know

cause all i know is this comfortable silence

and that is enough