for someone who are crazy over companionship

i found it funny that

i hate attachment the most

i find myself feeling awkward eating all alone on a ramen stall

while hating myself everytime i am asking for your company

i love the companionship and how we unwind the stress on each other and the laughter or the silence we shared with our head down over each other phone 

but i hate the feeling of being attached to an everyday mundane routine , as if it was exposing my weakness and inability to not gradually wanting you, to be part of  my everyday mundane routine.

i hate the blurred lines , between whether i cannot eat alone or i want to eat you .